A Warm Wind

 I was headed to see mom on a hot Thursday morning . No a/c on the truck so I decided to go early , the back way, my favorite. The road less traveled is the story of my life in many ways.That's why I drive an 88 Ford Ranger 4x4. "It don't get to rough " for and old stump jumper.
 I remembered that I had to get my mechanic to look at the  truck so he could order the air conditioner , so I want burn up and make the Multiple Sclerosis worse. (M.S. is an autoimmune disease caused by your body attacking the mylein sheathe that protects your  nerves ,like an electric chord that has brittle insulation. It causes lesions on your nerves , I got three they say one on my brain , one on my spine and one on my optic nerve. It causes heat sensitivity , my neurologist says "don't go outside it's too hot".)There's also Photo sensitivity bright sun and lights can make the M.S. worse and the most challenging thing is exhaustion 70% of all "M.Sers" are exhausted much of the time for no reason. However, I'm very blessed that I have relapsing remitting M.S., it's not progressive, I won't end up in a wheelchair.
 Anyway ,as I turned the truck around I was thinking about my 3 year old granboy. He can go to pre K next year but I think he can learn more and build stronger family ties by hanging with Pop (me) and his " Pop paw" and "Me Me".Which is what I did . It occurred to me how I haven't taught him about nature like I did  with my kids because I can't "stand the heat and exhaustion " of the outdoors any more . At that very moment I saw a flash of red followed by blue go through the air in front of me, a sparrow hawk chasing a cardinal. The smallest of the  hawks lost and turned back when the cardinal made it to a pine thicket. I think God uses these moments to maybe punctuate a thought so I went down the that "rabbit trail" for a few miles.
 I don't have a radio .I call my truck the truck of praise and prayer, what else is there if we get the electronics out of our faces and ears? We messed up when we took the cord off the phone , you really can't get away. About that time my phone rang, not really( lol ). We talked in Men's group last Sunday about fear. We're all afraid of something that we're afraid to tell . So we insulate ourselves with electronics instead of dealing with it . The fear a.k.a longing depression ect. Is like the hawk and we're the red bird .
  Strangely enough today, again I saw a hawk after a redbird just as  I went out with my coffee (yes I go out with my coffee we've had a tumultuous relationship for 35 plus years she calls me every morning, she keeps me up  at night sometimes!). There was a gaggle of crows carrying on because of the hawk ,I guess . It occurred to me , I wish we were like the crows . When there's danger they call to one another and they stay in groups too. Folks like me it would seem , in time of personal danger or struggle run and hide and keep quiet.
  Maybe that's why it's open season on crows, they 're one of the smartest birds and there's tons of them cause they warn each other and share their fears.   I'm reminded of three simple rules that we taught to kids when I was an elementary teacher about talking to or going with a stranger and avoiding a abuse : say no, get away, and tell someone. As an adult I still haven't learned that. When a fear or doubt comes up: say no , get away ,and tell someone, so they can say no, get away, and tell someone .........be encouraged in the Lord. 

Heat

 Too hot to mow no place to go thats not too hot. But, I got a/c and water and this keyboard , plenty to eat , a faithful maltese at my feet , the forever word , a beautiful savior ! a quiet blue house ..... But , I gotta mow 2 acres and it is hot ....so ill leave this keyybored, ive already eaten, my dog has gas( i gotta take him to the vet before he is buried by mistake!),ive read and prayed, so I ll swim in my above ground crystal oasis and get on my zero turn grass eatter wearing my wet  bue dragon bathing suit , particle mask, goggles and my big 75 dollar guaranteed for life hat my big brother gave . I go round and round and round , cause Im the kind of guy that likes to travel round , why did I wait till 1045?

"Weakend"

  "We're all afraid of something and we're afraid to admit it", I heard this line from a movie this week and it is something I've been thinking about...for some reason and it was a theme that came up in Men's group. Mike and I talked about being Warriors in stead of Worriers, there's only one letter difference but it can make all the difference. I want to " Warry " aka -trust , pray and meditate on the Faith of God. Not my Faith , I don't make Faith ,He does!
  Also, my grandboy  Landry , called to tell me that they took his dog to get a haircut and "She's not itching anymore Pop!" That puts life in perspective , getting joy from little things.We can celebrate and include our Father in everything the big and the small because even our small things are big to him! 

  I was thinking weakend b/c I had an M.S. exhaustion thing going till Saturday morning. I rallied  mowed grass Sat. morning and watched Cubs v Cards baseball till Suz and Baby came home from Savannah.
  J, Baby and I went to the Pastime theatre to watch Cameron , Adeline and Paige Lynch Band. It was great , we couldn't believe the crowd was so small. J was very impressed by Lynch bass player. I enjoyed the energy of Adeline and the not unDave Mattew,slike  acoustic guitar of Lynch and the tasteful lead licks of Tyson Pate.
   We were studying the 3rd chapter of proverbs in Sunday morning men's group we had a new member and discussed "the kid" in us that we all battle . The part that hangs on from childhood that says you're smaller , less able , not good enough ect. The lack of self (which we should be deny anyway!) esteem as apposed to the esteem we should feed off from the creator. Which is inherent from the time we get saved until forever!
   After church I invited David's bunch over , (which Suz wasn't planning on) so we came home and frantically cleaned and straightened and I put on burgers on the grill and had them cooked by the time they arrived. They brought a bunch of stff to eat  . We had 13 folks in all I think. David and I swam ,everyone visited ,ate burgers,beans,and brownies and ice cream .J and Reg strummed some too. It was a cool way to spend a hot day. And I hate wasting a Sunday on napping, which I probably would have done if left to my own devices.
  Later,after David's left, J and Reg went and played tennis and Baby and Ed went biking and discovered the Joy of coasting! Susan and I watched the "Answer Man" . A story about a guy who writes "Me and God "a fictional story of how God answered all his questions . But , he actually made it up ! And he has no real relationship to God. There are alot of cool spiritual applications.Then we hit "the cloud " and snoozed!