I was headed to see mom on a hot Thursday morning . No a/c on the truck so I decided to go early , the back way, my favorite. The road less traveled is the story of my life in many ways.That's why I drive an 88 Ford Ranger 4x4. "It don't get to rough " for and old stump jumper.
I remembered that I had to get my mechanic to look at the truck so he could order the air conditioner , so I want burn up and make the Multiple Sclerosis worse. (M.S. is an autoimmune disease caused by your body attacking the mylein sheathe that protects your nerves ,like an electric chord that has brittle insulation. It causes lesions on your nerves , I got three they say one on my brain , one on my spine and one on my optic nerve. It causes heat sensitivity , my neurologist says "don't go outside it's too hot".)There's also Photo sensitivity bright sun and lights can make the M.S. worse and the most challenging thing is exhaustion 70% of all "M.Sers" are exhausted much of the time for no reason. However, I'm very blessed that I have relapsing remitting M.S., it's not progressive, I won't end up in a wheelchair.
Anyway ,as I turned the truck around I was thinking about my 3 year old granboy. He can go to pre K next year but I think he can learn more and build stronger family ties by hanging with Pop (me) and his " Pop paw" and "Me Me".Which is what I did . It occurred to me how I haven't taught him about nature like I did with my kids because I can't "stand the heat and exhaustion " of the outdoors any more . At that very moment I saw a flash of red followed by blue go through the air in front of me, a sparrow hawk chasing a cardinal. The smallest of the hawks lost and turned back when the cardinal made it to a pine thicket. I think God uses these moments to maybe punctuate a thought so I went down the that "rabbit trail" for a few miles.
I don't have a radio .I call my truck the truck of praise and prayer, what else is there if we get the electronics out of our faces and ears? We messed up when we took the cord off the phone , you really can't get away. About that time my phone rang, not really( lol ). We talked in Men's group last Sunday about fear. We're all afraid of something that we're afraid to tell . So we insulate ourselves with electronics instead of dealing with it . The fear a.k.a longing depression ect. Is like the hawk and we're the red bird .
Strangely enough today, again I saw a hawk after a redbird just as I went out with my coffee (yes I go out with my coffee we've had a tumultuous relationship for 35 plus years she calls me every morning, she keeps me up at night sometimes!). There was a gaggle of crows carrying on because of the hawk ,I guess . It occurred to me , I wish we were like the crows . When there's danger they call to one another and they stay in groups too. Folks like me it would seem , in time of personal danger or struggle run and hide and keep quiet.
Maybe that's why it's open season on crows, they 're one of the smartest birds and there's tons of them cause they warn each other and share their fears. I'm reminded of three simple rules that we taught to kids when I was an elementary teacher about talking to or going with a stranger and avoiding a abuse : say no, get away, and tell someone. As an adult I still haven't learned that. When a fear or doubt comes up: say no , get away ,and tell someone, so they can say no, get away, and tell someone .........be encouraged in the Lord.
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